comming in-

to my space.
at least I can't complain there's solitude.

not here,
not outside,
or in there.

todaytodaytoday,

6/29/09.

finally! what was in front of me all along,
is here.

I haven't felt this happiness in a long time,
it seems strange;
but I don't want it to go away

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no rush, just relief.

Here's another feeling you might be familiar with. Do you know that feeling when you're scared to do something, but you know it's best in the long run? It feels so wrong to do it in the First place, until you finally have the guts to take the chance.

I do.

We'll see what happens tomorrow.

realization:

wakeup&reply!

*I wish I was in that same chair,
falling asleep in the best way possible;
a soothing piano, & everything is gone.
i mean.....gone.


I long for that piano now.

catastrophe, or me?

I don't know if you know that feeling where you have felt so happy, as if everything is perfect, everything is falling into place, then that feeling of your old self comes back.....& you're scared.


That's what happened.
I'm scared out of my mind.

She's been there,
she helped me,
I followed her,
is she leaving?

I can't beleive this happened.


I swore..

stop it!

no, no, NO!

tell me the truth, talk to me.

I need to know the truth, I need to know now.

Why can't I hear you?

Try to speak louder..

dakjv'ep;;

this is really happening,


isn't it?

at least i'm here.

humiliation?

face you?



I can't.