Still about you.

I don't know what to say.

if you only knew I was crying, when I'm talking to you.

who am I fooling? That shouldn't impact shit.

I SWARE!

I'm going insane.

More than frustration.
More than anxiety.
More than, chills.
More than a heartbeat.

Much more.

Take my word.

Just because your mind is on repeat, doesn't mean your heart is.

We all know that.

Telling yourself how over you are, doesn't make a difference.

Forcing yourself to let go, is more than just hard.

I call it, the impossible.

C'mon Chantal, stop thinking about it.

It was your choice dumbass.

Shit.

I...love...you...

but, I love my youth more.

fuck, do I love you.

I'm OVERWHELMED.

146 total days.

I can't wait.