I really don't, understand myself. I complain and complain about this, life, but yet I continue.

Today, was One of those mornings. The one's I feel as if, my brain has gone missing; "frying". I hate these mornings, but even so, I feel as if the memories the night before were worth it.

I think what confuses me the most is, I actually like what these pills do to me a couple of days after. They make me feel like my old self in a way. I'm more, clear with myself. I get this feeling similar to motivation, but it has to be stronger; it has to be. Something that, tells me I can be both. Something that tells me, I can be 'that girl', and 'this girl', you just gotta' cut down of the foolishness a bit.

I think trying to explain what these pills do to me a couple of days after, is as impossible as it gets.

But, I like it...