Hello July!

I started this month, sick as hell. Tonsillitis is a bitch. Not having the energy to do much, leaves me with more time to think.

I came to, a conclusion. Well...sort of.

I always seem to get excited, when I find a "special" someone. You know, we introduce ourselves, we talk, see the things we have in common, hang out, and soon become their "special" someone as well. Everything is fun, and I'm the type of person that leads people on; I always fool myself into thinking "this is what I want, he/she are all I want". It's fucked up, because when I notice I'm becoming their "special" someone, I want nothing to do with them.

Suddenly, I question, what the hell are teenage relationships good for? They all end in a break-up. All they do is, control my life; try and tell me what I can and cannot do, interfere with my schedule, and with my lifestyle.

Suddenly, I want to be alone.